Just a Bit Wrecked (Straight Guys #11) Read Online Alessandra Hazard

Categories Genre: Erotic, Gay, GLBT, M-M Romance, Romance Tags Authors: Series: Straight Guys Series by Alessandra Hazard
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Total pages in book: 56
Estimated words: 54110 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 271(@200wpm)___ 216(@250wpm)___ 180(@300wpm)
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This sickening longing… it would pass.

It had to.

Chapter 14

Vivian’s funeral was on a Friday.

Andrew stood by the Rutledges and stared at the coffin numbly, trying to feel something other than unease and discomfort.

He hadn’t been sure how he felt about Vivian’s body being transferred from the island to be buried next to the other Rutledges, but he hadn’t said no when Vivian’s family asked for his opinion. Now he was beginning to regret it.

It was just strange. He felt like a fraud among all these crying people. He felt so guilty for no longer feeling grief. He was sad, of course, and he missed her, but that pain was duller now, tinged with affection and good memories. He’d had time to grieve his wife. He’d buried her with his own hands ten months ago. It didn’t feel right to have her funeral again when he felt so far removed from that time.

He was glad for his dark sunglasses. He didn’t need more judgmental looks than he already got.

Finally, after what felt like forever, it was over.

Andrew hurriedly walked away, the knot in his chest lessening with every step he took. God, why wasn’t this getting easier? Why couldn’t he stay among other people without feeling like he wanted to jump out of his own skin?

“Andrew!”

He cringed but stopped at the sound of his aunt’s voice.

“Yes, Aunt Rebecca?” he said, turning around reluctantly.

His aunt was glaring at him. “You have been back for two weeks, but you haven’t bothered to visit me even once. I had to find out about your survival from the news!”

“I’m sorry,” he said. “I meant to visit you, but things have been crazy, you know—”

“No, I don’t know,” she said, her tone scathing. “Because you haven’t even bothered to call me, you ungrateful, heartless boy.”

Andrew tugged at his collar, but found the top button of his shirt already undone. He wasn’t actually choking. It was all in his head. “I’m sorry. I’ll do better, Auntie,” he said, looking around desperately for an escape route. Any excuse to leave.

None was presenting itself. No one seemed interested in approaching him, everyone too busy offering their condolences to Vivian’s grandmother and brother. Never mind that he was her husband.

Swallowing the bitter taste in his mouth, Andrew said, “I just got caught up in the legal issues, I swear. I’ll visit you soon—”

“This Sunday,” Aunt Rebecca said in a tone that brooked no argument.

“Right. On Sunday,” Andrew said, forcing a smile onto his face.

Dammit.

***

After the funeral, Andrew went to a liquor store and bought a few bottles of cheap whiskey.

Vivian had liked expensive red wine, but Andrew’s tastebuds didn’t notice any difference between a bottle that cost a thousand dollars and one that cost ten. He used to buy high-end booze anyway, pretending that he knew the difference. Well, he had no one to pretend for anymore.

He returned to his hotel room and got smashingly drunk.

At least this time no one was there to judge him.

The memory of dark eyes looking at him disapprovingly flashed to the forefront of his mind, and he was hit with a wave of unbearable, crushing longing. Normally he pushed these thoughts—these feelings—away, tried to squash them down, but he was too drunk for that now.

He reached for his phone and opened Chrome with unsteady fingers.

In his defense, looking Logan up was laughably easy. Information about him was in every article about their miraculous survival.

Logan McCall. Thirty-four years old. An owner of a rather popular hotel chain.

Andrew’s lips curled into a faint smile. He’d suspected that Logan wasn’t a simple owner of a hotel when his family had sent a goddamn private jet for him, but this was kind of funny. Way to downplay one’s business.

Apparently, Logan’s family lived near Boston, but he lived by himself in NYC. His address and phone number obviously weren’t listed anywhere, but it wouldn’t be hard to find out. All he had to do was go to one of Logan’s hotels and talk the manager into giving him Logan’s number. After all, everyone and their dog now knew that he had been Logan’s fellow plane crash survivor. The manager was unlikely to refuse to give Logan’s number to the person he had spent nine months living—surviving—with.

After looking up the nearest hotel that belonged to Logan, Andrew grabbed his unpacked suitcase, tossed in the few things he’d bothered to pull out of it, and called a cab.

As he stood in front of Logan’s hotel, a sliver of doubt crept into his alcohol-addled mind. He shook it off and went inside.

“I’d like a room,” he said at reception. He was pretty proud of himself for not slurring.

“Of course, sir. Your ID please,” the woman said with a polite smile that didn’t quite mask the curious look in her eyes. So she had recognized him. Considering how often his face had been plastered next to her boss’s, it probably shouldn’t have been surprising. Oh, well. Maybe it was for the best.


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