Lost and Found Read Online Lucy Lennox, Sloane Kennedy (Twist of Fate #1)

Categories Genre: Angst, Gay, GLBT, M-M Romance, Romance Tags Authors: , Series: Twist of Fate Series by Lucy Lennox
Advertisement

Total pages in book: 106
Estimated words: 100588 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 503(@200wpm)___ 402(@250wpm)___ 335(@300wpm)
<<<<203038394041425060>106
Advertisement


Until I finally realized I was pressed up against his chest and he’d gone deathly quiet. His body was stiff beneath my hand, which had somehow gotten tucked up under his armpit. My other hand was at his back. We both began breathing hard, but I dared not look at him. I knew what would happen if I did.

But god, I really wanted to look. I really wanted what would come after I did. The sweetness of his mouth, the firmness of his lips that were both gentle and demanding at the same time.

“Sorry,” I murmured as I untangled myself from his arms.

“S’okay,” he said.

After a few moments of tense silence, I asked, “What made you decide to work as a guide?”

“Living in a commune was fine and all, but I knew it wasn’t the life I wanted. So, I got a part-time job at a farm supply store. I saved up enough money to buy a car and used it to drive to Denver to get a job that paid better. It was at this really cool adventure outfitter shop. Some guys I worked with asked me if I wanted to go hiking with them one day, and that was it. I was totally hooked. Every second I wasn’t working, I was out here. After a couple of years, I started exploring on my own and worked my way up to taking people on guided trips all over Colorado.”

I took in what he was saying and thought about it before saying, “But why this?”

He seemed to understand what I was asking, because he studied me for a moment and then looked towards the lake. “You know I was never good with people, Bennett. I never really fit.”

I knew that was true. But he’d fit with me. I wanted to tell him that, but knew he didn’t want to hear it. It would just stir up things that needed to stay in the past.

“Out here, I don’t owe anyone any explanations. I don’t have to pretend. I don’t have to rely on anyone or anything but myself.”

Pain shimmied through my body as I realized what he wasn’t saying.

No one can hurt me again when I’m out here.

The reminder that our truce wouldn’t undo the damage I’d done to this man killed off something inside of me. Maybe I’d hoped, despite Xander’s insistence that this truce was for the kids, whatever was between us could have turned into something more.

“It suits you,” I said as I tried to mask my inner turmoil. And I meant it. I could tell he loved his world. But I couldn’t help but wonder if he still might love it just as much if he could share it with someone special.

Someone like me.

No, not someone like me.

Me.

Fuck, I needed to stop doing this.

As the silence between us grew, I felt the exhaustion of the day settle over me. Part of me would have loved to stay there all night with him, but being so close to him and not being allowed to touch him was a unique form of torture.

“So, tomorrow is about the kids,” I said.

“Yeah,” Xander agreed before sending me a smile.

“I should go to bed,” I said awkwardly as I stood. Xander stood too and my heart flip-flopped when he didn’t immediately step away.

“Yeah, me too,” he murmured. Was that reluctance I was hearing?

God, I was terrified of walking away from him. Even with the truce, I was still afraid of losing him again. What if he was cold, angry Xander again tomorrow? What if none of this stuff tonight had mattered? What if what had happened by that tree didn’t matter?

Ask me to fucking come to your tent, Xander.

I practically screamed the words in my head, but externally I did something much tamer.

But still incredibly stupid.

I reached my hand up to clasp the back of his neck before brushing my mouth over his in the briefest of kisses. “Good night, Xander,” I whispered, and then I walked towards my tent.

And another piece of my heart sheared off when he didn’t stop me.

Chapter 17

Xander

The hike to Gin Lake started with the kids playing a game of I Spy that kept making Bennett laugh so hard, I couldn’t help but join in.

“I spy something white and wet,” Toby called out as we hiked across Saddle Pass.

Frankie’s eyes widened as he stopped and looked around at the snow drifts surrounding us. “Holy moly, Toby,” he said with exaggerated goofiness. “Could it be… snow?”

“You got it in one, Einstein,” Toby responded with a laugh.

“I spy something white and puffy,” Frankie shot back.

“Hmmm,” Lucky said with a finger to his chin. “The clouds maybe?”

“Bingo,” Frankie said.

“Not a lot to choose from, I guess,” I suggested. “Maybe you guys need a little help identifying interesting items found above the tree line in the alpine region? I spy something that’s a prime example of flagging.”


Advertisement

<<<<203038394041425060>106

Advertisement